For some reason unknown to me I've been feeling a bit down today. In theory I should be content, seeing as I have just had an exam today that felt pretty good (I might even pass this one on the first attempt!), and there's nothing on the horizon except for learning more Japanese, which I actually enjoy.
I thought that maybe it was the nagging feeling that I should stop living as a parasite and get a real job, but that's not really it (besides, that's always there). No, I believe what I'm feeling currently is the emptiness that comes from the lack of a relationship with another human. Not the kind of relationship you have with your family or fellow man, but a relationship you have with someone of the opposite sex (usually, as is the case for me) you feel attracted to. I suppose you should get used to not being in a relationship, and I guess you wouldn't really be able to miss something you've never known, but I think it's something fundamental in the human psyche that urges us toward coupling up, and if that urge is suppressed for long enough you start developing oddities and/or depression.
Oh well, back to studying kanji, I suppose.